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Betrayed Thank you for some insight Romina. I don't see Steve as often anymore, I had to put some distance there as this is all very hard for me. I know he is still huffing because of sores around his mouth and one time he had what looked to be frostbite (size of a nickel ) above his lip. He's always rubbing his nose and like itching it??
I know he's using an ecig now with a large refillable tank?? I know it can't be good because he keeps it hidden & he doesn't use it around anyone. Do you know what that can be filled with?
About 8 yrs ago I huffed dust off, and not just a small inhale but I would take in as much as could and hold my breath. It only lasted 2 months before I became terrified and I knew the ONLY way for me to stop (because I for the life of me do not know how to ask for help) was to be caught in the act, by my extremely terrifying father, so when heard my dad come inside I yelled for him to "come here, quick!" And inhaled a large amount. When I started coming to out of my "second long crazy dream" (blackout) I was crouched down with my head between my knees and my dad said "I've been pounding on your door for almost a minute, I came thru ur closet finally. Jesus what kind of medication did they put you on?" (I had been in a psych ward right before I started huffing.) And I got scared, like really scared of what my dad would do, so I changed my mimd, I didn't want to be caught, so I hoped so hard that he wouldn't look down at his feet. He saw the can and threw me across the room onto my bed and actually balled up a fist and pulled back a little, but stopped himself. That would've been his first time hitting me. THAT scared me, then my dad told me while crying (which he does NOT cry) that he thought they had me on something like Thorazine. He said I was so out of it I was lulling my head and saying inaudible slurred words and drooling, and that those fun "dreams" I was having were actually mini comas. I changed a lot in two months, like, a whole lot. And if it hadn't been for my dad, someone who loves me, I would've ended up dead.
The real Steve is still in there, just do as much is as you can, without letting it hurt you, to let him know he's not alone and u love him. As for the Exit, the only reason to keep THAT hidden is if it has a hardcore synthetic drug in the vapor. I'm really sorry you're going thru all this, both of you
I wish u the best of luck!