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Thank you for reaching out for help, Brandon. The first step to getting well is admitting that one has a problem, in which you have. That is usually half the battle for those with addiction. The chemicals in products used for huffing are actual poisons that were never meant to go through the bloodstream. They're also very addictive, both psychologically (mentally) and physically. It may also be tougher to "get into recovery" from inhalant addiction due to the products being so readily available. You're certainly not alone in your struggles.
My friend actually has a severe BRAIN INJURY from inhalant use at the age of 12, now in her 30s. Please continue reaching out for help, and take the next step for your mental, emotional and physical health. There are treatment programs out there for those with addiction issues. I'm not a certified addiction counselor (CAC), but it seems as though you would benefit more from an inpatient (residential) treatment program rather than an outpatient counseling center. It's your decision, but a residential treatment center will provide more structure and support rather than going home from an outpatient program. After receiving treatment at an inpatient facility, the patient typically continues with an outpatient center. Please also start going to 12-step meetings, too, regardless of whether you're in a counseling program. It's important to get into a program of recovery to help sustain the sobriety (being sober). This website has a listing of some counseling and treatment programs: http://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/ and can type one's zip code or state of residence into search. There are some treatment programs referred to as "partial hospitalization" or "partial care" (or "day treatment") programs. It provides more intensive counseling rather than a general outpatient program. That type of program is typically for those who have been at an inpatient facility, but one doesn't necessarily have to have been at a residential facility to receive care from a "partial hospitalization" program. The patient (or "client," if at an outpatient center) goes home in the evenings. Please also know that some programs for those with addiction issues may also have a MICA (mental illness chemical addiction) program for those with both addiction and mental health disorders. Someone who has both substance abuse problems and mental illness is referred to as having a dual diagnosis, and there are separate programs for those individuals. There is usually an on-site (board-certified) psychiatrist to help deal with the medication aspect of those with a dual diagnosis. I don't know if you necessarily have a dual diagnosis, but you did mention having seizures, which is a medical issue. (Hopefully, you're taking medication for the seizures, if the doctor - usually a board-certified neurologist - has indeed prescribed medication.) I believe that just about every treatment program will talk about relapse prevention and strategies to help lessen the chance of future lapse, but some programs may have a more intensive program for relapse prevention. (Though, it's ultimately the responsibility of the person with the addiction(s) to utilize certain strategies and skills learned in treatment.) Please start going to 12-step meetings, such as Alcoholics Anonymous (AA). They are free of charge, and the only requirement is having a desire to get sober. One may attend an "open" AA meeting if there is no drinking problem. Here is their website: http://www.aa.org/ This website has some common mottos pertaining to those 12-step programs, including "One day at a time," "First things first," and "People, places and things": http://www.royy.com/toolsofrecovery.html